New Life for Neko

I've been so long off blogger,
when i think back it was 1 month ago before i complete my diploma =X

After diploma, i felt relieve n at the same time i'm depressed...
New course means start over again...
Different classmates, different lecturers, different subjects,
and it is not fun time anymore.
I have to maintain high marks on every subject.
Kinda pressures me down. =(

Anyway, it's my dream, and time has to go on,
I have to work my hardest towards my dream.
Just hope for the best 4 everything =D

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Sometimes i feel i'm so proud,
so arrogant,
can't naturally mix with others...
I feel i'm to self-centered,
a coward,
run away from things so easily...
Why is this so?
I'm selfish, i'm lazy, and i'm always depending on others...
Why this feeling doesn't leave me at all...

I feel i lack in everything,
and doesn't have anything which is good...

I've been given grace,
that's why i live until now...
I have a family, a home, things that I need, a chance to study what I like,
Memories that I cherish...
Why I've been treated so well,
and i don't feel deserve it...

I want to become better,
in attitude, in thinking, in studies,
I really wish i could be better......